Beauty is her asset and her confidence is her strength. God
has given her almost everything a woman could ever desire for. All the
compartments of her life are brimming with satisfaction except one……
A friend of mine would always quote,
“khoobsurat ladkiyon ko pyaar nahin milta”…..whenever I meet Smita or
look at her , I wonder how could someone
be so free spirited and happy?
I often suggest her
to settle abroad since Indian mentality doesn’t allow a single and strong headed
woman live life her way. I may sound judgmental if I say that Indian men get
intimidated by a strong headed woman. We have examples of this too.
In Kuch Kuch Hota Hai (famous Hindi film )Sharukh preferred
girlie and demure Rani Mukherjee over
tom boyish Kajol.. later in the film Kajol
had to go for a makeover to fit his bill.
And in the epic Mahabharata, Duryodhan could not accept one
remark by Draupadee and fought the war of Kurukshetra. Reading this, I know
many of you would raise your eyebrows rationalizing and calling Draupadi’s
remark mocking . Let me clarify that I don’t advocate bitchiness but I do campaign
for free expression.
Now coming back to
Smita, her biggest problem is that she never mutes herself especially during a
debate on women’s dignity and rights. She is vocal and expressive, which makes
her a dynamite and men automatically run away from her. She neither resembles Mayawati
nor emulates Mamta Banerjee. She is an utterly beautiful combination of grace
and courage. It’s not that she never found love….she did but it always turned
futile. You may call it her bad luck or you may blame her straightforwardness
for it
I say , she would have been better off if she were not a
woman but a man. All the men, who dated her went astray because of her supreme
independence and urge to be free of any constraints. She hops jobs whenever her
creative freedom is snatched, acts on
impulse and expresses her love in words without fearing judgments. In a relationship she never leaves anything to
imagination and love experts call it disastrous.
Once one of her boyfriends hinted physical intimacy and in
response she got the list of resorts where surreptitious booking were made.
Poor boyfriend got scandalized. In fact she didn’t want to make such booking; she just tried to test and as a
result lost him.
She told me once that she would have loved to be
domesticated if her beloved had given her some space or love. The first guy was
as a ritual commitment phobic. That affair ran for 40 days. He kissed her and
she felt as if she was now bound to him lifelong. Sensing this, the guy got scared and ran away.
Second guy proposed marriage to her but she felt he was not
stylish and she dint hear those over rated bells ringing in her head.
Third guy was passionate and intense. She had a rocking
affair with him. But ultimately he also turned out to be a mama’s boy. When
Smita spoke of marriage, he was brazen enough to say “you are good to have fun
with but marriage no…I will marry where my mom will want me to”.Smita kicked
him out of her house that night…since then she had turned a deaf ear and a
blind eye towards love , until Imtiaz entered her life.
Imtiaz was a self-styled progressive muslim, a communist by
heart. Smita met him in a business meeting for a development project. What appealed her most was his “I
care a damn about society or class attitude”. Imtiaz also noticed Smita
and dropped hints that he liked her.
Initially Smita did not think much about him, but Imtiaz was a persistent guy. The startup of this
relation was little hackneyed. Imtiaz’s pickup lines were boyish and over used.
It was his confidence and compassion for the under privileged that attracted Smita
towards him. She knew she was heading to
a dead end but the adventurous part of her kept her intrigued .
After a few
flirtatious coffee dates Imtiaz played his second card and that was ….. “I am an emotional and caring guy card”.
Smita had a gut feeling that he was somewhere lying but she wanted to believe
the unbelievable. There is one couplet saying, “ Jaadu tha ya tilasm uski zubaan
mein, wo jhoot bol raha tha mujhe aitbaar tha”……
Their chemistry moved ahead with one Hindi Film style passionate
kiss on a rainy night. Smita was still not in love with this guy, guessing which,
Imtiaz threw another “ I will always be there for you card”. Smita now God knows why felt happy
….I think it was her need to be protected or shielded that got a boost. By now
he had started to joke about introducing her to his mother.
We get one life and some thrills and frills like these add
charm and excitement . Smita was just infatuated towards Imtiaz and enlightened enough to judge that
this was not a long term relationship with him .
Initial miss you
messages from Imtiaz had now turned in to lustful messages ending with “I love
you jaan”….Smita
welcomed all and ultimately Imtiaz invited her home…….you know for what….
Smita had become adventurous so she prepared herself for the
hike :p
A night before, Imtiaz caught her on Skype….He had his fears before the
actual action or may be his guilt prompted him to confess, talk or discuss what
was troubling him. The conversation went on
Imtiaz- when you come to my place tomorrow, please wear
salar kameez
Smita- why salwaar
kameez
Imtiaz- slawar kameez is for my locality
Smita: without sleeve
chalega
kya
Imtiaz: dont you have one with sleeves…..
Smita: see i can cover my arms with dupatta
Imtiaz: no issue… but i want to share something serious with
you…can i?
Smita: bolo
Imtiaz: I don’t
expect commitment from you and can’t promise a commitment… …… rest is your
choice…. i m afraid of commitment…..I want an open relationship… because i know
we don’t have any future in this….i can’t promise marriage or an everlasting
relationship…….
Smita….HMMMMM…
Imtiaz : and because i have feelings for you…i also don’t
want to ditch you…life is not always as we want
…… though you never
demand …but i want to make it clear…..we can always be good friends
… indeed you are a marriage material…but i know i can’t do
this
Smita…Hmmmmmm
Imtiaz- now your turn to write or you can tell me whenever u
like
Smita: Would you
answer me with total honesty…I have three questions to ask…
Imtiaz: pucho
Smita: First question
Imtiaz: yes ask
Smita : you knew this from the beginning then why did you
initiate a friendship ?
Imtiaz: friendship is not for marriage…. and i m sorry if
ever i hinted you
Smita : but friends don’t speak of sex
Imtiaz: ha ha ha……… friend do speak sex….it is not a
copyright of husband wife or GF/BF.. if you associate sex with a relationship,
i m sorry..i had sex many a times
Smita: Second question
Imtiaz- Yes Mam
Smita : do you believe in fidelity
Imtiaz: i m not infidel….nor Fidel.. i m a person of time…i
never think of past or future
That’s why i m not a person of commitment. Don’t want to get
bound or bind someone
Smita : wo aapki convenience hai
Imtiaz: i wish i can marry you but i m sure i cant.. see i m honest enough…u want to enjoy ..i want
to enjoy
Smita- Third and the last question
Imtiaz- You can ask as many question honey…..
Smita: what is the reason that you cannot marry me?
ImtiazI: family and society are the reason
Smita : You are a self-styled , self-claimed progressive
Muslim and you are afraid of your family and society?
Imtiaz: nahi darta nahi… i m not interested
in marriage first….second i m sure it is not easy for you and for me too
Smita: you are not interested in marriage or you don’t
believe in marriage?
Imtiaz: both… but i m not sure…. may be by force i marry…i m
not a person of family and wife and children at all…but may be i have to do
Smita- Matlab you will marry someone you
don’t love … just to fulfill your mom’s wish……Isme kaahe ki honesty
bhai….Mujhse shadi mein dikkat kya hai?
Imtiaz…you are a Hindu
and may be my family doesn’t allow me
Smita: ab meree suno
Imtiaz: i always listen..and respect….last thing i want to
say…I was never after you for SEX….
SMITA: Really????? first
I never wanted a commitment or a marriage from you... second , I give
prime importance to Honesty in a relationship......I would have respected you more ….if you had said all the above in
the very beginning……you like other men took the
easy way out…. THE emotional route …….“pehle tehlao, phir behlao aur
aakhir mein letao”
Third ,how dare you call yourself a progressive muslim……You
are a person of convenience…you discard the norms that are tough and accept ones
that allow you to indulge……Does your
religion allow you to have an affair with a kaafir ?
Imtiaz-??????
Smita- You had told me once that you believed in a classless
society and your goal was to fight against capitalism….but I would suggest that kindly first fight with
your resistance to accept other religions ….
“…..mujhe na hi covenience ke saude pasand hain
aur na hi aapse shaadee chahiye..jis rishte mein kewal jismani sukh ki talaassh
ho wo rishta nahin chahiye”
Imtiaz- You got me wrong
Smita-Tum Bhi kambakhat ek aam mard nikle…….Bye…
[10/17/2011 12:24:52 AM] *** Call ended, duration 54:56 ***
And the conversation ended… I still wonder was it a
conversation or a battle between two
fanatics, two opportunists or just two different genders..?
Whatever the case is, Smita is still single and still hasn’t
lost hope in love……..
